Wednesday, April 30, 2008,
One other extra encourager
lols there is 1 other thing that encouraging me for moving forward but at the same time make me emo...LOL... and that thing is ANIME... shows such as naruto,bleach and many other good shows... make me feel like i wan to be like them... nvr to give up halfway and finish till the 'race' is over... giving up now means losing everything... budden i see they show until liddat make me emo... cause i feel that i cannot do up to their motto... lols... i see the show i feel like see anime characters can do it but i cannot do it... im a mere human just like any1 but in fact im worst >.<... haix... im now in a delima... whether to give up and be a loser like im always are or to perserver to till very end cause the fate had not been decided... its onli decided after u make this choice... to give up or not.... it seems cool if i perserver but i know i can't do it... just have to let nature to go its course... for i have nothing left to my name for me to lose...
Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[11:01 PM]
Du lan with audi~
haix... 1st time ever feel so dulan with audi lor... some1 in audi guai lan me lor... the person say what s/he pm me i nvr reply him/her... then afterward say what i put ?? nia... then i tell him/her i say ?? cause s/he say hi nia then after that nvr say anything... few minutes later s/he pm me again alot of crap... say s/he pm me i nvr reply anything... then i say"i put ?? then u also nvr say anything liao leh"... then after that talk to me in cap locks sia... i so scared... who can help me =.=... s/he say what s/he ask me question i nvr reply anything... good lor that person... even s/he got write so zun i start game le confirm cannot see mah... like dog sia... ya la ya la everything is my fault... reply ?? also got fault... don wan reply then write in caps... i so scared sia... who do u think u are...
which leads me to telling every1 this... STOP ACTING LIKE U UNDERSTAND ME SO MUCH FOR U ARE NOT MUCH MORE THAN A MERE HUMAN, UNLESS U TELL ME U STUDY HUMAN PSYCOLOGY THEN I WILL SAY IM SORRY TO U, DON KNOW ANYTHING THEN KPKB, U THINK IM UR WHAT?... this is also for the fker who put his/her name "yourhater" on my tagboard and act like a cb... if i found out who u are i make sure i will kill u and go boys home for all i care... if u think is a joke then try me....
Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[10:45 PM]
Jasper my friend >.<
today go out with jasper go orchard find cumpler bag for esther budden all out of stock... sad sia.. later esther angry with us... cause she don have crumpler bag... haha... esther so dao sia call her don wan answer... make us so sad... the person say nid wait 2-5 weeks for new stock arrive... haix wait until 1 month later esther bday liao... sure got other ppl buy for her le... sianz lor... we saw 1 guy with grey western lawn then we say we go rob the bag give esther... haha... i feel so lucky to have such a good friend... JASPER... lols... then after that we go north view slack... haha... budden his mind like off the place liao... donno thinking of what... then i nvr ask him also... haha... don think so much la jasper.... =p
tuesday i go his house suppose to help him with his maths lor... end out i go his house slack =.= sian lor if he fails his maths i sure dam guilty 1... T.T... see help ppl become slacking session... so sianz... *guilty for life* lols...
Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[10:22 PM]
ExtraS~!
im feeling so fk up with myself... everywhere i go i feel so extra... ppl keep dao me... i go in between ppl.... nothing i do ever please ppl at all... all i do is always extra... nothing i do will bring smiles on other faces cause im nothing but an extra... loner jiu shi loner... theres nothing i can do about it... whatever i do will do harm to others... no good results will come out... alwaays being a 3rd party to every1... haix... sorry to every1... i owe every1 so much...
haix... everytime tio discouraged by ppl... till im feeling so discourage... study also no use liao... stupid jiu shi stupid... using my whole life to improve or to be successful is practically impossible... 'anything is possible if u try'? i dont think so... try how many times also cannot do anything right... cause im loner and stupid and lazy....
Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[10:09 PM]
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Monday, April 7, 2008,
Happy Weekend Boring Weekday
Amazingly i feel more happy on weekends then weekdays... weekdays see book read book do hw... somemore still nid see the teachers... the eyes i hate so much... they look at us with that kind of look... feel like killing them.... ARGH... but during weekend at work i feel so entertained at work... cause keep joking around with them so happy sia... now i prefer working than studying liao... si liao... later academic sure v lousy... zzz... chiong liao la... study study and study more... must get good results for 'O'level even though i dono what course to choose... LOLS... chiong ar~ tmr a maths test got pass i happy liao... now studying for it... chiong till tmr morning... haha...
Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[11:36 PM]
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