Solitude, away from you

Thursday, July 24, 2008,

Sing song!

woots so cool. sit in class sing song also can cry. amazing sia. the song is "Welcome To My Life" by Simple Plan. These are the lyrics with my feelings at the very time i was singing in class today...

Do you ever feel like breaking down? UH HUH
Do you ever feel out of place? YEAH
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away? YUP
Do you lock yourself in your room? OF COURSE
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming THATS COOL

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright OF COURSE THEY DON KNOW
You don't know what it's like
To be like me DUH!

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else? OF COURSE I WAN
Are you sick of feeling so left out? YES!
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over? CAUSE MY LIFE SUCKS

Are you stuck inside a world you hate? STUPID WORLD
Are you sick of everyone around? NOT TRUE
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies NOT TRUE
While deep inside you're bleeding TRUE

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Labels: To be hurt, To be left out in the dark, to feel lost

Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
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Monday, July 14, 2008,

Emo Class~~

today bastard sia. lee fong shai go hong kong then whole class alot ppl emo~(EMO ROCKS~WOHOOO). then whole class alot ppl fight sia. sianz la. liddat carry on. this sat the performance sure dam lao kui 1 lor. last sat go sch rehersal planned like this then go up stage trial then diff from the planned lor. whatever lor. i think this sat i pon better. class liddat how to make a good performance. i hate the class lols.~~~~

Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[6:20 PM]
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Thursday, July 10, 2008,

Stressing Out

why do other family so bonded?
why is my family like this?
why no 1 is willing to be my listening ear?
why do i feel so extra everywhere i go?
why do i even exsist in the world?
why do i have to experienced all these?
why do i have to grow up?
why cant i be a infant 4ever?
why do my family find me irritating?
why do i have so many unsolved problems?
why dont i have solutions?
why i do not have my own cliques?
why i am such a loner?
why i am so emo?
why wasnt i dead the moment i was born?
why i cant even have care and concern?
why i have problems in my love life?
why cant any1 understand me?
why i am so suck in volleyball?
why i cant improve my skills?
why i am so ugly?
why cant excel in anything i do?
why cant i cry it out?
why my tears cant fall?
why cant i meet accidents?
why i cant be happy?
why i fantasy be true?
why i can nvr achieve my dreams?
why i cant help any1 in anything?
why i feel so extra even with my friends?
why my friends are so bonded except me?
why i so attention seeker?
why i so noob?
why i am not talented?
why i so sucker?
why must i cause trouble to my friends?
why am i so desperate for care and concern?
why dont i have a dog for me to play?
why am i so emo?
why my life is full of unpleasent things?
WHY?????????????????????????????

Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[10:09 PM]

Family

what does family mean to you? i don hav the image of what is family like. what is family i really don noe. y does every1 have such happy family and all i can do is smile. whats wrong with my family. a sister who thinks she is older than me and she can do whatever she like. a mom who thinks whatever i do is wrong and my sis is right. a dad which is not close to me. what kind of home is this.i am 15 yet they all think i immature. what about themselves. i just nid some1 that can understands me. am i really expecting to much of it? whenever i wan to tell my mom or sis my problems,whether happy or sad, they find me irritating. my sis always saying mom like this mom like that. she ownself also doing it. so what am i here. a person who ppl find irritating. i just nid a listening ear is it so hard to find? the world population is counted by millions. and in this millions i can't even find 1 who is willing to be my listening ear. not even my family is willing. haix. maybe i shouldnt be here, be anywhere.

Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[9:58 PM]
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Monday, July 7, 2008,

FK LA,KNN

fuck la whatever lor... knn... everytime got problem happen between couple every1 would see it as the guy's fault... fk la... do these ppl even know what actually happen?... ppl say girls are the weaker sex so fault must lie with the guys... then after that all the females in the world bua song... fight for equal rights... say male female must be treated equally... fuck la... what irony... girls are using thier gender as an excuse for every single thing... fuck la.. knn... these ppl no brain... onli know how say... do they even know what the guys are experiencing?... don't even know anything then say guy's fault... since is my fault i wont be guilty lor... my fault le mah... so i harsh to her also don care.... whatever la... FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
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Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[2:04 PM]
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Sunday, July 6, 2008,

Buzy man! ^^

lols after i went home i thinking of things like today i do alot wrong things... then alot ppl like v distracted =x... then i sms them... in the end i sms + msn chatting + tagging ppl blog and my blog replies... first time in my life i so bz la... sms 4 ppl msn 3 ppl tagging i think got 10 ppl... lols... and then found out alot things from them which WOW me.. haha... now watching my anime ^^ wahaha... since most of them tired and sleep liao, go out or do other things ^^ end of day =p

Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[1:10 AM]

Song bo

wah today song bo... before go concert wan catch bus run still shirt become transparent... but dried up so nvm... then after that go causeway eat then take bus then late... zzz... wtf lor they anyhow paste the things lor... kao then door close le we gan chiong keep running ard searching for the concert hall... in the end we go the reception they say wait till interval... then we go the 2nd floor see... then wth there is no interval... luckily we reach 2nd floor le the band de ppl haven start... sat down there onli... the concert is nice esp when every1 sing the school song so loudly... budden abit short lor... sianz...

after the concert i went tgt with chloe them... actually come with bb gang but i like v extra then chloe ask me go with them then i sui bian... then ps the bb gang lols... then i walk out quite far liao then forgot csm hoodie with me then he call me say he sick wan the hoodie... then i run back give him.. scare he fall sick... then after that walk back to chloe them... haha...
then we go eat then i having gastric >.<... then me and pris(the chio bu) discovered something v unbelievable... lols... then we keep saying and disturb some1... then we v surprise lor... then after that pris went off first cause she live in yew tee not cck so not same way... then me clar and sichuan keep disturb chloe... then she laugh until cannot eat... after tht we take mrt to lot 1 then walk back... we sent the girls home then we then go home... haha the concert so short not fun 1 =p~

Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[12:26 AM]
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Wednesday, July 2, 2008,