Thursday, July 10, 2008,

Stressing Out

why do other family so bonded?
why is my family like this?
why no 1 is willing to be my listening ear?
why do i feel so extra everywhere i go?
why do i even exsist in the world?
why do i have to experienced all these?
why do i have to grow up?
why cant i be a infant 4ever?
why do my family find me irritating?
why do i have so many unsolved problems?
why dont i have solutions?
why i do not have my own cliques?
why i am such a loner?
why i am so emo?
why wasnt i dead the moment i was born?
why i cant even have care and concern?
why i have problems in my love life?
why cant any1 understand me?
why i am so suck in volleyball?
why i cant improve my skills?
why i am so ugly?
why cant excel in anything i do?
why cant i cry it out?
why my tears cant fall?
why cant i meet accidents?
why i cant be happy?
why i fantasy be true?
why i can nvr achieve my dreams?
why i cant help any1 in anything?
why i feel so extra even with my friends?
why my friends are so bonded except me?
why i so attention seeker?
why i so noob?
why i am not talented?
why i so sucker?
why must i cause trouble to my friends?
why am i so desperate for care and concern?
why dont i have a dog for me to play?
why am i so emo?
why my life is full of unpleasent things?
WHY?????????????????????????????


Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[10:09 PM]
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Isolation is aloneness that feels forced upon you,
like a punishment.
Solitude is aloneness you choose and embrace.
I think great things can come out of solitude,
out of going to a place
where all is quiet except the beating of your heart.