Saturday, November 22, 2008,


im really confused now...i donno what to do anymore...i pray to god asking him to help me...but it turns out there was no answers...maybe i wasnt sincere enough?... maybe he doesnt care about me anymore?... if i jump will i meet god?... i really nid to talk with god right now...should i jump and lose concious to meet him?...should i sleep and let him appear in my dreams?...who can tell me what to do....i scare if i jump he still wouldnt wan to meet me...i donno what to do...i onli know that god is the key to my answers...but yet i cant find him...what should i decide....jump or dont jump...


Alone->Loneliness, Solitude->Solitary, Isolated
[6:09 AM]
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Isolation is aloneness that feels forced upon you,
like a punishment.
Solitude is aloneness you choose and embrace.
I think great things can come out of solitude,
out of going to a place
where all is quiet except the beating of your heart.